Im Focused Man

Demand it.
Take it if you must.
Steal it if it is necessary.
Buy it if you can afford it.
Look for it if it must be found.
Fight for it come blows or bloody knuckles.
Push for it…
Topple the walls that hold it with your might
Work for it. Let it be your wage.
Cry for it if it will float closer on your tears.
Barter, trade all if prudent.
Wish for it if you believe wishes come true.
Hustle for it where haste does not make waste.
Scream for it until your lungs bleed then use the joy of having it to repair the wound.
Trick your way to it if you are clever.
Beg your way to it if you are not.
Flex what you have if you have enough to intimidate its possessor.
Fake what you have if you do not.
Lie the cruelest lie if your lies will allow you to have it
Talk your way to it until you have uttered this worlds every word
Kill for it if murder is worth its prize
Go for it, even when the going gets tough.
Search. Look. Gaze upon horizons until you can rest your eyes on the prize.
Walk to the corners of the world, or else run until you catch it.
Get it. Find gods speed and harness it.
Whatever you desire is attainable.
Make IT yours.


I wrote this to myself years ago and it helped me blaze my way through college. Its time to get back on IT.
For now, my its are:

• The continual betterment of everything pertaining to my son
• My law degree
• $
• Finding forgiveness in my heart
• Peace of mind

What's your IT?

Silly Goose

Allow me to confess some silly things. Perhaps if i put them out there, the universe will return bits of wisdom.

1) For my 21st birthday, my mother offered to pay off all of my debt. Instead i opted to have her pay for a bashment party at Sin City cabaret. Use your imagination.

2) I have hundreds of pairs of shoes. But i only have 2 feet :-(

3) I just spent a chunk of cash on my hair last week and now it looks like this:

Because i don't know how to wrap 18 inches of hair, headties give me headaches, doobies make my head itch, and i thought i could treat a weave like i used to treat my regular hair.

4) Say this out loud: "CLICK" <--How long did it take? Yea? well thats how quick i can blow 1,000$ add a second for every additional G. Subtract a nano second for each 100$ below that amount.

5) What is this beast called save? How do i tame it?

6) Sometimes, when my hub and i don't feel like doing laundry, we throw it out and buy new shxt. (And we have a washer/dryer) :-x

7) I eat out almost every day, almost every meal.

8) Paid almost 300 for my wii on ebay while they only cast 250 in stores. Something about ebay makes me so friggin competitive. I feel like a failure if am outbid, or don't win an auction :-x

9) I want what i want when i want it. And believe me i get it. At whatever cost. (see above example)

I'm done with this. Don't judge me. :-)

My February resolution s to stop the bullshit and fiscal foolery.

Universe, please show me the way. Voyeurs, feel free to chime in. Amen.

Shxt List

Hello Voyeurs.
I'm pissed.
Yeah, pissed.

At a lot of people.

So, here is my shxt list.

Shxt

1) Chris "shxtty" Brown

How dare you, you bastard.

Woman is woman. No matter how fierce her attitude.

I don't care what she did.

Rot in hell woman abuser.

2) ALL OF YOU SHXTTY PEOPLE WHO FAIL TO CONDEMN THE AFOREMENTIONED SHITTY FOR HIS INTOLERABLE ACTIONS.

Are you one of these people?

I was watching TMZ the other day, and the paparazzi-turned-reporters were asking random celebrities for their thoughts on the beat down. Over and over the same sentiments were echoed. "He's a good kid," "Hope they work it out," "I don't know the details, but..."

HUH???

There is no but.

Rihanna was severely pummeled by her boyfriend.

(PERIOD)

I don't care if she got feisty.

I don't care if she smacked him first.

I don't care if Chris seems like a "good kid."

Obviously he is NOT!!!!

To paraphrase Harvy Levin, GOOD KIDS DO NOT BEAT UP THEIR GIRLFRIENDS.

Why are we tip-toeing around the fact that Brown beat up a woman?

Maybe i'm old school, but where i come from, that is a NO NO!

To paraphrase Jay-Z, what if it was your mother, or your sister?

Would he still be a "Good Kid?"

True we are all human. And we all make mistakes. But it is only when we are held accountable for those mistakes that we can learn from them. So ef all of you who are not seeing the situation for what it is.

A sad case of abuse.

So ends my shxt list. Its a short one today.

Back

I know. I've been slackin on my mackin.

Sorry.

As it were, my hub gave me a treat...in the form of some extra play $ (thanx baby), and i up and lost my damn mind. But now its done, so i'm back. :-/

Here's what i bought voyeurs:

Betsy Johnson Tisha boots

A stam bag

This Camera/a memory card/a charger/ a usb stick card reader/extra battery

A muh-fuckxn Wii...Yea Yea Yea!!!!!

This bag

2 Hello kitty watches

& a bunch of random shoes:

I bought just about all of it on Ebay, which i love with all my heart. I'm usually not an e-bay kinda gal, but i have a 2 month old. Its winter. There's snow on the ground. I breastfeed. Mall? Ha.
Plus i relish in the delight that the UPS man brings. Ooh la la...there's nothing like ripping open fresh cardboard boxes...
Ebay holds its own though. I got everything at pretty good prices. Make that excellent prices.
There's no therapy like retail therapy.
I'm done with the binge shopping...got my proper fix...
Once the rest of my packages arrive i'll be sure to model and snap them for you...