i still believe

Some days i'm strong and resilient.
Guns drawn, i'm so militant

Some days i'm soft and pink.
I just paint my toes and i think...

Today i'm so lavender.

Like pink with a drop of black in it.

Today i'm wishing on stars
Taking day-dream voyages to mars
Just wanting to be wherever you are

Today i envy hugs and kisses
Today my body misses
The touch
That i loved so much

Today,
My heart would be soft and pink
Except for the drop of ink
Thet fell from my pen
When...

I paused to realize that
This side of heaven is where i'm at...

i still believe in love

just waiting for the one who will take my hand while we leap over to the other side


...waiting...
xoLola

My Chick Bad

This Chick Bad.
Honey I'm Good.
I do the stuff that your chick wish she could.

My guy co signs. Does yours?

Shout out to all my bad chicks, Aye!

3.8.10 x Ruckus

I woke up today wanting to nag and bug the hell out of people. Real meanish.

Once i asked someone, "if i was a candy, which one would i be?"
The person replied, "Sour Patch. First you're sour, then you're sweet."
I thought that was amazingly accurate.


Things did manage to turn around though.


By the end of today, i taste just like candy.

So

Dance

With

Me

1 roller down a thousand to go. See you in my dreams...

3.7.10 x Spring

So, voyeurs, spring is here. Its been 50+in the NYC. So we hit the park...


He looks at me like I am the sun to his earth.


Its all about my sunny today (and every day).

xoNahnah's mom.

3.6.10 x Purple Kisses

I love it when you put them pretty lips on me

...Purple kisses...

...Purple kisses...

the Dream

Today...good friends, good times...

As for the shoes, if they've gotta be flat, they've gotta be fly (period).

I Paint My Toes Pink

I think,

As i paint my toes pink,

This is love,

This is war,

I rise while you sink

And i think

This battle, i'll win

Come big guns

Or black bullets

Bring your lies

Bring your sins

A stroke of the brush

My mind strays from his reign

No longer his kingdom

No longer my pain

Once again,

My thoughts become yours

This is love

This is fate

You persist through wars

These pink thoughts

are not sweet,
but sincere.
I have something to prove
And nothing to fear

If you have my back,

I have munition on deck

He aims at my heart

While i aim for the neck

Still i think,

I don't want to fight
You hold me
console me
say everything's alright

Enough,
I dont want to be tough
Show me your truth
I'm done with his bluff

At the end of the day,


Im just the girl...
With pretty pink nails
Who has faith in the world





My punctuation is inconsistent. I don't feel like putting commas where they belong. I have no patience to capitalize every I.



You get it.



Under the black, there is pink.

Bylines For My Lines

Just a little reminder...

They call me Lola

But...

JEANENE JAMES.

Its a good name.

Get to know it.

3.5.10 x New Beginnings

I started a new job today. Its mega fabulous, and I'm about to make beaucoup bucks doing what I does. Hell yea.

I'm still working freelance with GIANT/Hello Beautiful, so look for me there as well.

There's something so powerful about a good pair of heels and all black everything.



Look for me. Chea. (Jay voice)

Oh and ef this 365. I'll holla when I can. Love me anyway, ok?!

3 x 2.26.10 x Snow Day

Its snowing more golf balls today, so i decided to make the most of it. I bundled up the nino, and we hit the streets.

It resulted in one of these:

Escada did the sculpting.

In Gucci boots...smh...

I did the loving...
And also lent him my arms because he had none.


But in the end we found some...


I love him. And i loved this day. Its been a while since i've been able to be young and build snow men.

Everyone's bitching about the snow. Not I. Thank you God ;-)

But i must say i froze my friggin ass of...Thank God for my favorite radiator as well...

2 x 2.25.10 x Re-do :-/

Ok. This project 365 is harder than i thought. So lets start again, shall we?

I'm in the process of a life makeover.

First, I'm single (all my single ladies!).

I danced to that song at the club for the first time the other night. I loved and hated it at the same time.

Second, my career is kicking into high gear.

Third, 'sall good. ;-)

Here we go. Again.

Today it snowed golf balls and I, like a silly goose, wore cute shoes.


These shoes were NOT made for walking (in ice). Still, I stumbled my way out of the Tribeca lofts and into the abyss where I wanna be.

I was an emotional wreck all day, and this came tumbling out of me...


I push front,
He falls back,
Two bodies braced for an attack.

I fall back,
He leans forth,
Spits nasty words to hit the source.

His blow connects,
I cringe in pain.
Now,
Things will never be the same.

My wounded mind says run away,
My wounded heart still wants to stay.

I push front,
Then I strike back.
Choose red words infused with facts.

He turns his face,
He didn't know.
His guards fall down like midnight snow.

I sense the breach,
As he falls back.
Again I tense for the attack.

Here we stand,
He and I.
No more secrets, no more lies.

I feel the moon has come to stay.
Forever midnight,
So ends this day.

As we fall back,
Into the abyss,
We reach for eachother,
But our arms miss.

I fall back,
As does he.
Falling to places we don't want to be.

"Are you there?",
I call into the night.
There is no answer,
We've both lost this fight.

"Where are you love?"
He shouts to the air,
There is no answer,
Forth comes the fear.

I am scared to face the dark,
He fears our love has missed it's mark.
But every darkness becomes light,
This cold dark night will soon be bright.

I fall back,
I let it burn,
Though for his comfort I sometimes yearn.

He moves forth,
In search of day,
Although Sometimes he'd like to stay.

I push forth
He falls back
We watch the fire fade to black.

A love is undone,
But hearts do mend,
We fought until the bitter end.

Already though,
I'm so ready to go,
Towards this beautiful tomorrow.

Its been a while since i played with words. I missed it.

Until tomorrow voyeurs.

xoLola

1 x 2.20.10 x Reunited

Reunited and it feels so good. Aye!

Do you know its been 10 years since i graduated from Junior High School?

Project 365 day 1.

Let the games begin!

Project 365

So, voyeurs. Half the fun of reading blogs is learning about peoples' personal lives...i haven't forgotten that...

I want you all to fall back into the rythm of my life, so i am falling into the rythm of project 365. i will update you daily with the images, thoughts and words that describe my day, everyday for the next 365 days. So here we go...

Cheers to a fabulous year bitches.

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My Exclusive Interview W. Chris Rock & Nia Long (PART I)

CELEBS + STRIPPERS: What's The Allure?

Should The N-Word Be Abolished?

Considering the fact that the N-word was created as a racially demeaning term used to marginalize an entire race of oppressed people, it is hard to understand why the word is still a fixture in urban discourse. The debate on whether or not the term should be informally abolished is still raging in America, though there is a general lack of consensus with regard to the sensitive issue. While the rules banning most if not all other races from using the term are clear, we are still unable to let go of the historically rooted profanity, turned term of endearment.

Recently, Jonathan E. McCoy, an 11 year old boy took a stance against use of the N-word. His smart, honest approach to criticizing the word's implementation in urban culture is among the most poignant ever offered by such a young orator. In his speech, McCoy states:

"Unfortunately this misinterpretation of our heritage has been perpetuated among our own race. Rather than obliterate this disrespectful term we have adapted it as a cultural phrase. You've heard it, “What's up my n-word?” Or maybe you've said it, “Get out my face n-word.”So why have we taken this word to use it in our everyday language to communicate to or about ourselves? Let me dispel the myth, as a people we are neither economically, politically, nor socially disenfranchised…..So I'm petitioning you to join me in deleting this word from our vocabulary as a people, as a nation and as a world."

While this young man is aware of the benefits of abolishing the N-word, other more public figures differ in opinion. There are scarcely any hip hop artists that omit the word "ni*ger" from their music, much less their personal vocabularies. Prominent rappers (who are also consequently our youth's role models) glorify its use, and encourage it regularly. Jay-Z, who is perhaps at the apex of hip hop fame, is one of the most vocal advocates of the N-word. In a recent interview with Fuse TV, the super star explained his views on the N-word when asked whether it was still appropriate to use the word ni*ger with someone like Barack Obama in office, Jay-Z responded:

"No i disagree with that, I think that what we did with the word ni*ger is turned it on its ear. We took the power out of the word because people give words power. If we eliminate the word ni*ger, i mean, its a great gesture. But i don't believe that's the answer to the problem. If we eliminate the word ni*ger it will be porch monkey. People give words power...Before [Barack Obama] was there, this word existed and we took that word and turned it on its ear and made it a term of endearment. Like 'this is my nigga, jigga my nigga.' We took the power away from that word...I think the larger problem is fixing that. Fixing racism at its core that's the only thing you can fix. You can't fix words."

While both are conscious of the fact that racism is the foundation upon which the N-word was built, their opinions of what it has been built into varies. Whats your view? Is the N-word just a derogatory remnant of the past, or have we as a people taken control of it and made it a positive term?

Should the N-word be abolished?

Here is the footage of Jay-Z's interview with Fuse. Check for the racism discussion around the 16 minute mark:


To see my photo gallery of the most infamous N-word supporters go here!!!

How Celebs Have Ruined Our Lives

Whose Style Is Better: Beyonce Or Rihanna?

Note To Ciara: Pick A Style Already!

Want To Know What Dates With Celebs Are Like?

Ever wonder what it would be like to date a Celeb? Where would he take you? What would you do? How fab would it be? Well I sure have! Here is my speculation of what it would be like to date today's hottest celebrity men:

1.) Lil Wayne

Expect to go to Morton's Steakhouse because we all know how he likes to open 'em up and fillet Mignon! Perhaps a date with the pu**y monster is not such a bad idea...

2.) Jeremiah

Although this R&B star is sexy, I'm not entirely sure that a date with him is a good idea. If he is so cheap that for your birthday he wont even get you a real present (just some old birthday sex), then expect nothing better that Mickey D's on this date (didn't you see the video for I'm a star?).

3.) 50 Cent

This buff rapper will probably take you to the candy shop. Maybe Dylan's Candy Shop if you're in NYC. But be careful, because he WILL try to make you lick the lollipop too! Yikes!

4.) Drake

He will definitely try to be slick and take you on a group date with a few of his other "close male friends." Keep an eye on him though. We all saw the picture, Drake! We know that your head has a propensity for falling into other men's laps (side eye).

5.) Trey Songs

Trey has made it clear that he likes the money, cars and the clothes. Expect to be picked up in an exotic European whip, taken on a shopping spree and treated to a dinner at some fancy restaurant. But you can also expect to be bored to death by the dinner conversation, because he's only into talking money. He just wants to be successful.

6.) Chris Brown

This could be a fun date. Things should go okay. JUST DON'T PISS HIM OFF! Don't say i didn't warn you.

7.) Michael Vick

For this date, you will probably be visiting your local questionable Chinese restaurant. You know, dog meat is considered a delicacy in China.

8.) Martin Lawrence

Many women find this wacky actors sense of humor charming. If Martin is your cup of tea, the get your manners in check ladies. You are headed for a good home cooked meal at big mama's house!

9.) Lil Bow Wow

Two words, Chucky Cheese.


10.) P. Diddy

I anticipate that as soon as he goes to pay the check at whatever fab restaurant you dine at, the Feds will swoop down in a scene out of the movies and lock you up for dealing with that dirty money. That's if Kim and Cassie don't tag team your a** first.

11.) Jay-Z

WAKE UP LADIES. Beyonce says its too big, long and wide, and we all know what she really meant. She's not about to give that up. You are so not getting a date with Jay and his big "ego."

12.) Fabolous

Something tells me that the way this rap star spells his name (wrong) is indicative of how your date will be; faux fab. He might want to stunt and take you shopping. He'll say "go ahead baby, just throw it in the bag." At that point you will probably go crazy and try throwing entire racks into "the bag." Then as soon as you turn your back to try to stuff 22 pairs of Gucci shoe boxes into a single shopping bag, he will sneak right out the door because he's not into trickin. I'm just saying...it could happen like that. You never know.

13.) Soulja Boy

Beware! This date is only for the shameless and in-shape. Soulja Boy will take you to teen night at the local club, and have you doing silly dances ALL NIGHT LONG! And don't wear sunglasses! He might attack your face with a white out pen.

14.) Flo Rida

Dude, you're totally going to Dave and Busters to have a totally awesome time. Then maybe you will check out a gnarly Britney Spears concert. Anything mainstream, dude.

15.) Kanye West

My guess is, Kanye will take you any where you like. You will have amazing conversation about how fab your outfit is, and the new line of hand bags that just came out. Maybe you will gossip a little. But at the end of the night he will most likely hit you with an "I'm not that into girls you."

Perhaps dating a celeb is not all its cracked up to be, or it is. Care to speculate?

Salybia Resort & Spa: An Undiscovered Paradise

How Not To Wear Your Weave

Weaves, wigs and extensions are all double edged swords. On one hand, they can help you to look unbelievable fly. On the other, they can make you look like you are wearing a bird's nest on your head. Please, ladies, avoid much ridicule and humiliation by taking a few necessary precautions before you venture into the realm of supplementary hair. Here are a few things for you to consider, before you let some hairdresser convince you that you look like the next Beyoncé.

1) Are your tracks showing? Ladies, this is a cardinal offense against the weave gods. Do not let your tracks show! Either cover them up or put on a hat, because exposed tracks just eliminate the purpose of the entire weave.

2) Don't opt for the cheap stuff! There is a wide array of hair available to you at every price point. However, DON"T use that as an excuse to buy the cheapest half-plastic-half-horse concoction out there. Spend the extra money to get (at least) something that sprouted from another human; and then if you can, go for the better quality human hair.

3) Keep it natural looking. I don't care what type of Polish-Chinese-Indian-Cherokee you claim to be mixed with. Nobody can grow 5 pounds of 24 inch hair. No one. Don't try to jam 5 packs of hair on to your head. It will make you look like a furry lollipop.

4) If you are going to do a lacefront, or any wig for that matter, don't let it eat your forehead. Try to get one with a realistic hairline that is not 2 centimeters above your eyebrows. And avoid gluing a wig to your forehead. That just doesn't even sound right.

5) Keep your edges tight. It makes no sense to have a super kinky mini afro around your hairline, and then 16 inches of perfectly straight glorious locks flowing out of the middle of your head. And while you're at it, make sure your edges are the same color as your extensions. Black roots have no business with a blond weave.

6) You can't treat a weave like its your real hair because, well, its a weave. Don't get your weave and then think its your hair so you don't have to be as meticulous as you would have been without the extensions. Wrap your hair at night. Comb it. Tie it. Love it. Don't be fooled! Your hair may look like your own, but its still a product that needs to be taken care of and maintained.

7) Fake it 'til you make it. A huge part of the weave-allure is the fact that when done correctly, it will blend in with your own hair. So work it like its growing right out of your own scalp. Fling it, make it bounce a little when you walk, style it up and be fab with it. Rock your weave so hard that no one will ever suspect that came from the store!

Check my gallery to see some celebs demonstrating how NOT to rock your weave HERE!!!

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Do West Indian Women Get A Bad Rap?

The recent domestic abuse scandal involving Rihanna and Chris Brown has sparked quite the controversy in the blogosphere. Both bloggers and readers have taken to their keyboards to sound off on the details of the incident. Much blame has been cast upon both involved and much judgement has been passed down, but the discussion of Chriannagate '09 has also taken on another side; particularly amongst those seeing Rihanna as the guilty party for whatever provocation she offered in the situation.

Many have chosen to single Rihanna out as hot headed, irrational, and Caribbean. But since when did "Caribbean" become an insult? Peruse the comments following stories related to the Chris/Rihanna beat-down and you're sure to find one, if not many, angry bloggers insulting Rihanna and attributing her actions to her West Indian nationality. Fine, people are going to blame the starlet for playing some part in the scandal. But why not separate the girl from the nationality before judging her? Rihanna might be West Indian, but are all West Indians like Rihanna? No.

In fact, it seems like people of Caribbean descent get a bad rap within the industry and in the media as well. Recently, one of Chris Brown's dancers made a viral video in which he called Rihanna a "West Indian slut." The problem is, a generalization like that goes beyond Rihanna and encompasses all West Indians. While this could be chalked up to a misuse of words, it seems like there is a negative connotation connected to people, and in particular women, who identify them selves as West Indian.

In a recent episode of the popular Bravo show The Real Housewives of Atlanta, cast-mate Lisa visits her mother who declares that she is West Indian. At that point Lisa comments on how "spicy" such women are. Yet another generalization, albeit not as severe as the previous with regard to Rihanna. Throughout the media it seems like such stereotypical opinions are the standard for this vibrant, diverse group of people. The West Indies is comprised of several independent island countries beginning near the southernmost tip of Florida and continuing to the coast of Venezuela. Considering this, it is strange that so many people from so many different countries are so often lumped together and pigeonholed.

So is this the standard? Do West Indian women really get a bad rap, or are these two instances isolated?

Your thoughts?

Rihanna's Top Throwback Hairstyles

Rihanna is quite the chameleon when it comes to her ever changing hairstyles.

Many times it seems like she draws inspiration from past celebrity icons and pop culture idols. Here is my compilation of Rihanna's top throwback hairstyles.

They say that history repeats itself, and in the case or Rhianna's hair, this is certainly true. If TMZ's comparison above doesn't convince you, then have a look at my gallery at

HELLO BEAUTIFUL!!!

Jay-Z: "I Believe In God, But Not Christians or Muslims"

Jay-Z went on Hot 97's Angie Martinez radio show to officially address rumors that he is a member of the super-secret Illuminati, and a “devil worshiper.”

He definitely did tackle the rumors head on, instead of dancing around the issues like these celebrities so often do. He also spoke candidly about his views on other religions (which he doesn't believe in). Check out his interesting perspective below:

“I don’t know where it started. I don’t know where it came from. I really think it’s really silly. For the record, I of course believe in God, but I believe in one God. If people must know my religious beliefs, I believe in one God. I don’t believe in religion. I don’t believe in Christians or Muslims. I think all that separates people. I think it’s one God. I think it’s all the same God, and I don’t believe in Hell. But as far as God, of course I believe in God. Am I a part of some sect or cult? That sounds stupid to me. It’s like ignorant to even say, and umm… I guess that’ll be the last time I address that. It’s ignorant to me”

I can’t even get in a golf club in Palm Springs. I’m from Marcy Projects. Just think about that? People that control the world?

Do you believe that those sort of organizations exist?

I think there are cliques of friends that control things. I don’t if there is a devil worshipping sect. That’s a little Tom hanks. I believe there are cliques of people that control the world…but that’s just natural process. I’m sure Obama has his people and everything is good but as far as how far people are taking it…

So you don’t intentionally do this to put people in a frenzy?

I’m an entertainer at the end of the day. Maybe I’ll push your buttons but you know…

What do you think? Is Jigga really down with the devil?

For the rest of the interview and the audio, go to Rap Radar.

STYLE PROFILE: Swimwear Designer Johnny Vincent

Superstar Rihanna has been spotted vacationing in fabulous bathing suits by a brand new designer that you should definitely get to know.

Swimwear is one of the most frustrating clothing items to purchase. It is easy to feel like your options are ridiculously limited while browsing through rack after rack of the bikinis or one pieces that are distinguishable from each other only by their differing colors or patterns. True, swimsuits are meant to be minimal, but they all tend to look alike, and for the individualistic girl, a plain old bikini just isn't going to cut it.

Check out Rihanna's sombrero look in Mexico!

Enter Celeste Johnny, a new designer that is infiltrating the swim wear game one couture bikini at a time. Celeste's sexy design sensibility is transforming the way we look at the typical swim suits (ie, the "3 piece" bikini seen on a yachting Rihanna recently). If you are looking to crank up the temperature of your beach look this year, then Johnny's new swimwear line under the moniker "Johnny Vincent" is just the thing to help you keep it hot!

Take a look at her line HERE!

According to her website:

"In 2007 Celeste launched her first collection, “Paradise”. This collection paid tribute to the Hollywood of old with an explosion of glamour on the runway. With her eye for vibrant color, majestic fabrics and glamorous accessories she has made JOHNNY VINCENT the “must have” item for any woman’s summer collection.

Since the launch of Paradise, Celeste has participated in fashion shows all over the world, landed the cover of NOIR magazine, a European publication launched this fall and now has her pieces available in St. Vincent (the island behind the name), Aruba, Barbados, Jamaica, New York and in 2009 Barcelona.

With the launch of the “See You Watching” collection Celeste plans to have all eyes on JOHNNY VINCENT."

Get to know her fashionistas!

Ugg & Jimmy Choo To Collaborate

To our dismay, Ugg is set to smear the reputation of the impeccably fashionable house of Jimmy Choo with its oversize fur obnoxiousness.

According to Fashionista, the two mega-brands are set to collaborate on a set of boots ranging in price from $595 to $795. The collection should debut this fall, and will be sold in Jimmy Choo boutiques, Ugg stores, online, and select department stores.

While the Ugg brand will definitely benefit from the Jimmy Choo brilliance, the relationship appears to be extremely one-sided. It's smart to capitalize on the Ugg mania, but the high fashion shoe brand is nonetheless slumming it with this collabo. (Plus, Ugg-Choo sounds more like a sneeze than an all-weather uber-fab shoe hybrid.)

We are so not looking forward to the day when Jimmy and Ugg have a baby. Are you?


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A Fashionable Cause: Help For Haiti

By now we are all aware of the earthquakes that rocked Haiti recently, leaving the small island nation in complete turmoil. Well, fashionistas, here is another way for you all to lend a helping hand.

Kimora, Djimon & Baby Kenzo Cover Ebony

One of my favorite Hollywood families just posed for the February 2010 cover of Ebony Magazine.
The cover features Kimora, Djimon and their newest addition baby Kenzo.

In the issue she discusses her new life and family. She states:

“I feel like my life has fallen into the right place in a great way. I’ve been very slow and deliberate, and I feel like it has paid off for me in ways that I could not have imagined.”

Make sure you pick up this issue!

Check out the cover in its entirety here: