Sunday Funday

Finally made it out on Saturday night with my ace boon coon to celebrate her engagement. Drama filled night, but nonetheless worth it.

Whats better than "send me a pic"?

tank A Wang, jacket H&M

After a few hours of sleep, off to work...

pant Club Monaco, t-shirt vintage, jacket Alexander Wang

The jacket is best at the back

After work, lover bears with a few of my fav people in the world.



In this moment i just feel so alive...

im here...

i've been gone for way too long; i know.

sorry.

i'm back.

i've missed u. hope that u all missed me. :-)

my last post was on april 19th and since then everything has changed and nothing has changed. i don't think its worth it to cram it all into one post, so we'll take it easy.

let me start with a simple list...

i know i did this in the beginning, but here are a few more things you should know about me seeing as how everything has changed...and nothing has either


1. i got the nickname Lola from my little brother who is fabulous and visionary. much like Prince, when William gives you a name, you take it, you use it and you like it.

2. someone once told me i was dipped in good in the sweetest way. my, how inverted your vision was. ha.

3. if i could make anyone write the story of my life, it would be maya angelou. adele would have to sing it.

4. ATL is still one of my favorite movies. ever.

5. i have mastered stoicism. or maybe stoicism has mastered me, because i am able to surpress my emotions to the point where i sometimes wonder if i still have any.

6. i'm truly, madly deeply in love with a man named Alexander Wang. and im certain that its reciprocal because everything he designs loves my body back.

7. i believe what they say about 2012. so im just trying to get right before then.

8. i have come to know my soulmate

9. this year will be my quarter century b day and i hate it

10. i want to fall head-over-heels, sick-to-my-stomach, forever-and-ever back in love with this one person. i want to fall to that place and never come back.

11. i love rap music. right now im particularly into Kanye. i understand him.

12. i feel that my calling is journalism. im on a career tangent at the moment as i do the fashion thing, but my weapon of choice will always be the pen.

13. i have only one vice: shopping. ('i be killin em' -fab)

14. i've been floating in the atmosphere for this past year. i'm trying to get grounded again

15. my son is my life

16. someone suggested that i am the bitch in the equation below. i want to change that.

so here i am voyeurs. as im sure you've gathered already, im on a quest for love, happiness, fashion and fun. i want to document my journey here, everyday, in every single way so stay tuned.

i apologize for the pic...until i find a real daily photographer its "camera in the mirror bbm pose" (i be killen 'em) :-)

♥ lola

i still believe

Some days i'm strong and resilient.
Guns drawn, i'm so militant

Some days i'm soft and pink.
I just paint my toes and i think...

Today i'm so lavender.

Like pink with a drop of black in it.

Today i'm wishing on stars
Taking day-dream voyages to mars
Just wanting to be wherever you are

Today i envy hugs and kisses
Today my body misses
The touch
That i loved so much

Today,
My heart would be soft and pink
Except for the drop of ink
Thet fell from my pen
When...

I paused to realize that
This side of heaven is where i'm at...

i still believe in love

just waiting for the one who will take my hand while we leap over to the other side


...waiting...
xoLola

3.8.10 x Ruckus

I woke up today wanting to nag and bug the hell out of people. Real meanish.

Once i asked someone, "if i was a candy, which one would i be?"
The person replied, "Sour Patch. First you're sour, then you're sweet."
I thought that was amazingly accurate.


Things did manage to turn around though.


By the end of today, i taste just like candy.

So

Dance

With

Me

1 roller down a thousand to go. See you in my dreams...

3.7.10 x Spring

So, voyeurs, spring is here. Its been 50+in the NYC. So we hit the park...


He looks at me like I am the sun to his earth.


Its all about my sunny today (and every day).

xoNahnah's mom.

3.6.10 x Purple Kisses

I love it when you put them pretty lips on me

...Purple kisses...

...Purple kisses...

the Dream

Today...good friends, good times...

As for the shoes, if they've gotta be flat, they've gotta be fly (period).

3.5.10 x New Beginnings

I started a new job today. Its mega fabulous, and I'm about to make beaucoup bucks doing what I does. Hell yea.

I'm still working freelance with GIANT/Hello Beautiful, so look for me there as well.

There's something so powerful about a good pair of heels and all black everything.



Look for me. Chea. (Jay voice)

Oh and ef this 365. I'll holla when I can. Love me anyway, ok?!

3 x 2.26.10 x Snow Day

Its snowing more golf balls today, so i decided to make the most of it. I bundled up the nino, and we hit the streets.

It resulted in one of these:

Escada did the sculpting.

In Gucci boots...smh...

I did the loving...
And also lent him my arms because he had none.


But in the end we found some...


I love him. And i loved this day. Its been a while since i've been able to be young and build snow men.

Everyone's bitching about the snow. Not I. Thank you God ;-)

But i must say i froze my friggin ass of...Thank God for my favorite radiator as well...

2 x 2.25.10 x Re-do :-/

Ok. This project 365 is harder than i thought. So lets start again, shall we?

I'm in the process of a life makeover.

First, I'm single (all my single ladies!).

I danced to that song at the club for the first time the other night. I loved and hated it at the same time.

Second, my career is kicking into high gear.

Third, 'sall good. ;-)

Here we go. Again.

Today it snowed golf balls and I, like a silly goose, wore cute shoes.


These shoes were NOT made for walking (in ice). Still, I stumbled my way out of the Tribeca lofts and into the abyss where I wanna be.

I was an emotional wreck all day, and this came tumbling out of me...


I push front,
He falls back,
Two bodies braced for an attack.

I fall back,
He leans forth,
Spits nasty words to hit the source.

His blow connects,
I cringe in pain.
Now,
Things will never be the same.

My wounded mind says run away,
My wounded heart still wants to stay.

I push front,
Then I strike back.
Choose red words infused with facts.

He turns his face,
He didn't know.
His guards fall down like midnight snow.

I sense the breach,
As he falls back.
Again I tense for the attack.

Here we stand,
He and I.
No more secrets, no more lies.

I feel the moon has come to stay.
Forever midnight,
So ends this day.

As we fall back,
Into the abyss,
We reach for eachother,
But our arms miss.

I fall back,
As does he.
Falling to places we don't want to be.

"Are you there?",
I call into the night.
There is no answer,
We've both lost this fight.

"Where are you love?"
He shouts to the air,
There is no answer,
Forth comes the fear.

I am scared to face the dark,
He fears our love has missed it's mark.
But every darkness becomes light,
This cold dark night will soon be bright.

I fall back,
I let it burn,
Though for his comfort I sometimes yearn.

He moves forth,
In search of day,
Although Sometimes he'd like to stay.

I push forth
He falls back
We watch the fire fade to black.

A love is undone,
But hearts do mend,
We fought until the bitter end.

Already though,
I'm so ready to go,
Towards this beautiful tomorrow.

Its been a while since i played with words. I missed it.

Until tomorrow voyeurs.

xoLola

1 x 2.20.10 x Reunited

Reunited and it feels so good. Aye!

Do you know its been 10 years since i graduated from Junior High School?

Project 365 day 1.

Let the games begin!